The Wall

[changeling67]

Over the past 4 years, I have put an emotional brick wall up.  I hadn't realised it until comparatively recently, but it is there.  I think it's because I have had to be very single minded with what I do for my BA.  Plus, the past 2 years have been an absolute rollercoaster ride.  I think Hubby's illness earlier this year just cemented the lot in.  It is there for a reason - to protect myself and just keep soldiering on.  Right now, I cannot afford for the wall to be 'down' - it serves me.

It saves me...

Comments

[bluegerl.livejournal.com]

One thing at a time! Keep the wall up until YOU want to let it fall. But you need it now, so use it... they're good things to lean against when you feel beat!

When all is done -- you'll find you need the bricks to build all sorts of other things - with love!

HUGS love, HUGS AND HUGS. Those are the cement that hole the bricks together!

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

I am ok with it - it is what it is. I was thinking that when this is done, I am quite looking forward to having a normal life. Writing for fun, go back to doing stained glass or felting. Even silver work or bead looms - the idea of working 9-5 with nothing impinging on my home life.

I will gladly knock down the wall when I am done at Uni :-)