Horror Story

In Your Room

( In Your Room Lyrics )

In your room...Last night, I dreamt of my old house (circa early nineties), but for irony's sake i will nickname it Grimmauld Place (I know - all the HP fans will be filled with distaste).  The house was empty, save for the carpets and my old pale blue bedroom. Where time stands still....I slept on the oatmeal carpet, sun shone through the curtain-less window and I could feel the rays on my face. Will you let the morning come soon...?  In this dream, I had woken and padded downstairs - to find a twin self sleeping on the hideous spiral carpet in my front room. I laid on my side, trying to reassure the twin self, who was cold and running with sweat - that everything was going to be OK. Or will you leave me lying here....? We both closed our eyes and the sun warmed our faces and the souls of our feet.

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Out of any dreams I have about the places I have lived, I only dream of this house.  Not my childhood one, or the current one - I continually return here. I have mixed feelings about this place; I experienced a paradox of the emptiness of being lonely, but also the solitude of being alone.  I was self-sufficient and and had the most 'unchecked' creativity there i.e. I did art that pleased me rather than other people (murals, indie music and tie-dye clothes - ah the nineties). Yet I would say that I am happier and have achieved more creatively (and more successfully) as a mature adult, where I am now. I have no yearnings to return to my twenties - in fact I would dread returning there, whether in my old house or otherwise. During the dream, I heard this song. Why do I feel that I have lost something?

Will I always be here?

BotMan Art

My late Mother's Day presents - they are lovely and will be framed forthwith.

I got them, because a) they are beautiful - much, much better in real life b) it reminds me of the Hamlet project that I did this time last year - with The Smiths lyrics "I am human and I need to be loved." Plus, I saw my Access lecturer yesterday and it was lovely to see her in college again. Ah, Access - a bittersweet time.

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( The Smiths - How Soon Is Now? )

Thank you, BotMan  :-)