Sub Rosa

This was THE best song of my 20s - I heard it on MTV and it blew me away.  I missed their London O2 Tour back in May 2013, because I had to take my end of year exam.  Suffice to say, when they tour again, I will do my damnedest to get there.

I listen to it now and I am automatically 23 again. Lovelovelove you, Dave :-)

( Never Want To Come Down/Never Want To Put My Feet Back On The Ground )

 When girls were swooning over Duran Duran, I was definitely a Depeche Mode lover. This song has been the most significant  song in my life. I know the sound has been tweaked a bit on this video (not an octave change, I just think they've made the song faster), but I am still in love.

*sigh*

( Walking in My Shoes Lyrics )

( In Your Room Lyrics )

In your room...Last night, I dreamt of my old house (circa early nineties), but for irony's sake i will nickname it Grimmauld Place (I know - all the HP fans will be filled with distaste).  The house was empty, save for the carpets and my old pale blue bedroom. Where time stands still....I slept on the oatmeal carpet, sun shone through the curtain-less window and I could feel the rays on my face. Will you let the morning come soon...?  In this dream, I had woken and padded downstairs - to find a twin self sleeping on the hideous spiral carpet in my front room. I laid on my side, trying to reassure the twin self, who was cold and running with sweat - that everything was going to be OK. Or will you leave me lying here....? We both closed our eyes and the sun warmed our faces and the souls of our feet.

Out of any dreams I have about the places I have lived, I only dream of this house.  Not my childhood one, or the current one - I continually return here. I have mixed feelings about this place; I experienced a paradox of the emptiness of being lonely, but also the solitude of being alone.  I was self-sufficient and and had the most 'unchecked' creativity there i.e. I did art that pleased me rather than other people (murals, indie music and tie-dye clothes - ah the nineties). Yet I would say that I am happier and have achieved more creatively (and more successfully) as a mature adult, where I am now. I have no yearnings to return to my twenties - in fact I would dread returning there, whether in my old house or otherwise. During the dream, I heard this song. Why do I feel that I have lost something?

Will I always be here?

I post this, because it was in my dream the night before last.The only original video to this song is a bad repro on Youtube. Someone commented that all they remember of the video, was seeing a Lonesome King carting around a deckchair.  Think it was DM's idea of Dave as King Canute.

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here, in my arms.
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm.


Enjoy the Silence...

( A Higher Love )

For a friend, awaiting results :-) xxx