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Today has been hard - trying to plan for a mini dissertation that you have already written the abstract for, seems a little strange - I mean, the abstract is more or less the plan anyway. I actually don't know what I am going to write or how I am going to explain it until I actually sit down and do just that. There will quite possibly be a lot of wipe board planning, but that will be en route - can't exactly pencil THAT into the planner.
I am not happy generally at the moment. Hubby isn't so well: after ruling out normal probs at the GP, he now needs a hospital consultation and a procedure to find out if.....well - if there is anything serious going on. This couldn't be happening at a worse time - he is studying for a crucial exam and I am on the onset of a brink of a MASSIVE amount of work heading my way. The problem is both of us cannot skim the surface of a subject and do partially well - we are both deep learners and have to delve into a subject so that we can understand it. If we can't understand something in layman's terms, then we can't deliver it to the examiner in academic terms later. It is as simple as that.
I feel like I am batting way beyond my league again. Hubby doesn't want to talk about it, or rather he does and scares himself half to death - then doesn't want me to talk and be distressed. Bottom line ::: if I am not strong for him, then he can't be strong. It might be something - it might be nothing.We are both scared.
I'm scared....
I am not happy generally at the moment. Hubby isn't so well: after ruling out normal probs at the GP, he now needs a hospital consultation and a procedure to find out if.....well - if there is anything serious going on. This couldn't be happening at a worse time - he is studying for a crucial exam and I am on the onset of a brink of a MASSIVE amount of work heading my way. The problem is both of us cannot skim the surface of a subject and do partially well - we are both deep learners and have to delve into a subject so that we can understand it. If we can't understand something in layman's terms, then we can't deliver it to the examiner in academic terms later. It is as simple as that.
I feel like I am batting way beyond my league again. Hubby doesn't want to talk about it, or rather he does and scares himself half to death - then doesn't want me to talk and be distressed. Bottom line ::: if I am not strong for him, then he can't be strong. It might be something - it might be nothing.We are both scared.
I'm scared....
