Bluebeard - Reflective Commentary

[changeling67]

Basically, I am reading the same 319 words and suddenly my vocabulary has dissolved into infinity.  I feel like I am literally smacking rocks together. A form of "I can't 'brain' today, I have the 'dumb'". Trying to get across how I could have loused the PP up less, is depressing.  I did well, but needed a stronger angle on what I needed to say.  Very valid points - if I had slightly longer time to reconsider, I might have gone back to it and done exactly what had been suggested.  Instead, I got so sick looking at it, I decided it was now or never.

Plus ::: We have been told that we have 12 days to get 2 essay drafts done (Victorians/Romantic module) as the date for final draft hand-ins is 5/1/15.Mine are on Charles Dickens/Hard Times and Mrs Gaskell/North and South; and a study on the works of Samuel Taylor Coleridge.  I read Hard Times during the summer - I haven't even breathed on North and South yet.  I have to read them through Marxist theory eyes as well.  I have had to email our Film/New Tech lecturer to push our deadlines closer to the end of January - I know that there are some of us that can't jam this all in i.e. 2 rewrites and a PP on Tim Burton (which includes a 2,000 word seminar paper) all during the Christmas break. I think even if I just took Christmas Day off, I would be pushing it.

O_O

20:28
My problem is that I over-think things.  I have written and emailed the reflective commentary. I vow to do better in the actually dissertation but I have come to a conclusion.  I have proved time and again that I am worthy of a first, but I run out of stamina pretty quickly.  Because of the time constraints and the amount of work, I really don't think that I can strive for so high for so long.  I think I will aim to do my best and not go loopy in the process.  Studying full-time eats into any life that you have and I want to still have my marbles in a jar when I get to collect the scroll, not burn out en route.

I am a little sad at this thought, but I need to be practical too.  A few people are hitting a wall as we speak and one has dropped out already, due to commitments. 

Comments

[bethnoir.livejournal.com]

Sometimes you have to settle for good enough rather than perfect, as you say, pacing yourself is important and being aware that you need to do this is a really important step. I had some friends at university who burned out, it's a hard thing to get back from.

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

Yes, I realise that now. I am saddened that we lost one of our stalwarts. I didn't realise how affected we would all be about this. I know a few will waver a bit, but the plus side is that next year there is a mature student coming up with us to Plymouth who graduated the FdA English Studies this September just gone.

No - the whole object of this exercise is to improve my job prospects :-)

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[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

I have read many a bad book - mostly came out unscathed. I get let down by books that seem to be good, because it has critical acclaim, but on closer inspection it is a pile of cack.

For instance, I used to like reading James Herbert - read 'Ash' and wish I hadn't.

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[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

Brilliant book and I wished that I could do that to the Herbert book.