Train Dreams/The Fall

[changeling67]

So many train dreams these days, not surprising since I spend a good chunk of my life on them. If this is about motivation (please see Jung for details), then I am always between stops rather than actually arriving anywhere.  My fellow classmates finished their degree day before yesterday and, even if I feel a little crestfallen that I wasn't with them, I DO think I would have gone three shades of loopy if I hadn't gone part time.

Have taken to reading Ransom Rigg's Miss Peregrine's Home For Perculiar Children enroute and listening to Numan/Fenton collaboration From Inside (Original Sound track from film by John Burgin - From Inside).  I've been having a bit of a Gary Numan renaissance recently, as so has he.  Prone to depression and occasionally bouncing off of the walls, Numan has bouts of excellence, punctuated by conflicted feelings, it is the combo of Fenton and Numan's wife Gemma that keeps him going, no matter however much he complains about them.

(Fenton: Mate, you gotta get back on track and do what you do really well.

Numan (staring out of a window): ......I want a kitten....)

Anyway, have downloaded stacks more of his stuff and really liked The Fall.

Comments

[everville340.livejournal.com]

...I DO think I would have gone three shades of loopy if I hadn't gone part time.

The endgame may not have happened on the same schedule as your classmates, but knowing yourself enough to have made the decision that felt right for you is admirable. Thank you for sharing this, it brings me comfort and inspiration among the fear of exposing my own personal thoughts amidst my own pages.

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

You are right re the endgame - for some reason, I felt like I was on some kind of five year plan (which didn't make sense until I went part time back in November last year). I think I am due to have a longer stint at Plymouth Uni for reasons unknown. I am sure that it will reveal itself to me in due course.

Sometimes you got to know your worth, too and even if things make you stumble, you have got to keep your eye fixed on the prize (or at least that is how it is for me, as I have waited a long time for this opportunity).

I am sure that forums such as LJ are good to express yourself, if you wish to. Plus side with LJ is that people communicate on here, whereas the likes of Wordpress or Instagram tend to be a quick *like* button and that's it.

[everville340.livejournal.com]

Thank you, on many levels. It is the communication you talk about here that feeds my reclusive soul, in a way. To be able to grow enough to see the fear of interacting is in me. And does not need to be there.

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

I am a bit of a hermit, but I am seeking to change this. I think doing a degree shoves you straight out of the comfort zone, but the benefits....wow.

BTW - you are 6 months younger than me, so anything I can do, you can do too (if you put your mind to it) :-)

[everville340.livejournal.com]

Thank you, for your kind words of encouragement. I am inspired by your story, and your journey. Your classmates may be out into the world now, but you have an innate depth to your studies that will take them years to gather - the experience of Life. Cheers to you!