Wayback Machine

[changeling67]

Once upon a time, way back, I went to Cornwall College and unfortunately (but not wholly unexpectedly), my course and its expectations unravelled for me.  Basically, it culminates in this building.  It didn't help that two years later, I more or less did the same thing.  Phase 1 & 2 - bang.  Do not pass go, do not collect two hundred quid.  I remember it looking like the grey, inhospitable building on the left, not the bright, funky celebration of education on the right.

I can't help but have conflicted feelings about this place, but I am hoping to face it head on, a year from now.  I will be back (hopefully with a newly-minted BA in the bag) to face this final demon, literally by taking an art/photograph leisure course.  Evening or day-release,  I want to make new memories - it doesn't change history, or obliterate the things that had happened, but it will resolve something. Perhaps having a portfolio of fresh photos (later scanned in black and white) will signify a time of healing.  Already, the FdA English Studies has changed the nature of my dreams of 9 Grimmauld Place and in reconnecting with it back in April, I achieved some closure, some recognition of the past...But...more IMPORTANTLY,  healing has taken place.  Because something has come full cycle and it is over 22 years ago since I left my old house.

It is 32 years ago that I left the college.  Not just a generation ago, but a generation and (nearly) a third.  Not now, my lovelies, but soon, soon...

Depeche Mode - Everything Counts

Nik Kershaw - Wouldn't It Be Good?

Howard Jones - What Is Love?

Thompson Twins - Doctor, Doctor

Tom Robinson - War Baby

For all those Generation Xers - guess the year.

Comments

[spikesgirl58.livejournal.com]

Just remember that our past made us what we are today. if you had had that earlier success, you wouldn't be the person you are now. Everything happens for a reason and I'm sure you will meet the new challenges head on. :D

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

Yes - I have overcome many obstacles to get this far and I know that already healing has taken place. I think it's a matter of timing and these things will come full circle, just not quite yet :-)

[spikesgirl58.livejournal.com]

But I truly believe that it will happen.

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

:-)

[everville340.livejournal.com]

I want to make new memories - it doesn't change history, or obliterate the things that had happened, but it will resolve something.

That is an powerfully awesome intention - almost building upon the cornerstone of the past in a way? - and I respect you even more for it, and sharing it to inspire others :)

[calico-pye.livejournal.com]

Thanks - It took a lot for me to return to Higher Education - but so worth the wait. So much has changed - I am pretty self-motivated and most of the lecturers are about my age (or younger), most are great, very supportive.

Very different from the eighties, I can tell you.