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The apparition of these faces in the crowd;
Petals on a wet, black bough.

(In a Station of the Metro - by Ezra Pound)

 
This was posted by me three years ago and I must admit to really missing my old class and lecturer from then.  At least I felt alive and animated, whereas now I am surly and closed off.  Take no notice - as I mentioned before, I had no sleep, then 3 hours, then woken up by post, calls and I think the world and his wife wanted my attention at midday today.  back to chipping away until my mind goes blank.

 

* mumble, grumble, crumble*

Later
Alas, it all came to nowt as  Prodigal 2 announced that he needed to get to the job centre to sign on toot sweet, or we wouldn't be able to get rent out of him this week.  Just not my day.  Too dozy now to carry on, so I am taking my Kindle to bed to listen to David Suchet reading Tom Sharpe's Blott on the Landscape.  Very early night of rme, but night all :-)


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It's four in the morning
And all through the house,
Every creature was stirring,
Especially the spouse.

The vision of sugarplums danced such a jig,
Spouse snoring as loud as a flatulent pig.
Prod 2 in his room making all a clatter,
Last vestige of peace is now all of a shatter.


Ms Pye wants to give their ear holes a flick,
And vows next year to elope with Saint Nick.
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Lying awake as too many things crowd my mind. Like - 2 trips out at the end of the week that require planning; needing to make myself scarce tomorrow so J can study and should I take my camera; which book next - Black Venus (87pages) or The Bloody Chamber (probably twice as long). Long worries about uni - renewing rail card, which means nailing down one of the dons to sign it off. Plus, what the hell will my major diss argument be about? Can I make ANY of the lit crit criteria fit my theories? Concerned that my closest friend is being seriously mucked about by her boyfriend; another moving away.Shit that probably doesn't matter, but it's making it your business now at 3am and beyond.

Need the sweet arms of Morpheus right now.

Wide Awake

Apr. 11th, 2016 02:54 am
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Hello Darkness, my old friend - seems I'm wide awake again 0_o.

I went to sleep and had a bizarre dream about the Singapore noodles I ate this evening.Woke up abruptly and the ability to settle back down to sleep, is so far, illuding me.

Brain doesn't want to switch off now. It is not helped by the fact it is J's yearly check up with a string of worrying tests to boot. I must admit to feeling rather overwhelmed recently. Not enough space - I need to change that. Go up on the hillside and just unplug from everyone and everything.

We had a wee thunderstorm a few hours ago, which I have caught on film - will upload later. Right now, I have got to wind down and not think of tests, pending assignments or going back to uni.

Or thinking of old and/or absent friends. Really wish I could settle back down to sleep.

Kindreds

Dec. 18th, 2015 02:05 am
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Hello Darkness, my old friend. Seems I'm wide awake again. My mind feels like I have left all the tabs open and keeps flicking backwards and forward, like some kind of scanning machine. Barcode brain.

I performed one of my pieces of written work at the Arts Centre. It was a good session, actually.Rapping guys called Hedluv and Passman were hilarious amd the narrator chap was good too. I have been filmed doing mine, so I will have to hunt it down.

To tell you the truth, my stomach is in knots. I feel very walled off from people. I feel like a shook bottle of pop - one twist of my head and everything would just gush out, like a sticky, angry volcanic mess. Maybe I should walk to the beach and scream at the sea.Would it understand, though - or laugh and throw stones back?

I am toying with the idea of getting a stop film animation kit in the new year. Also, a small camcorder. I want to write things and see it come to life, rather than imprison it on paper and lock it in a drawer.I also want a 'hapi drum' (santa take note).

Seriously, though - I think most of this is borne out of being fed up writimg in depth re crap I don't care about. I need to craft something rather than create merry hell on the phone, because Student Finance have mucked up my allowance. Or trying to qualify how Humbert's a perv in 'Lolita'.

I will have to get some shuteye. Apparently, our harshest critic shed a tear when she heard our monologues tonight. We must be doing something right. And this is what I miss.

Kindreds :-)

Humbug

Jun. 12th, 2015 01:18 am
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Crabby. Can't sleep, been couped up all day, my limbs ache. Serious problems re tendons. I have insomnia again. Worked up and worried that either my body will give in, or that myhead will crack and my brain will fall out.

Not a good time to have a restless night. Humbug.

Hope & Pray

May. 6th, 2015 12:51 am
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I can't sleep - I will be dropping Hubby off for his operatation in 7 hours time. It has been cancelled twice already, so in some respects, we'll be glad when it is done. I have 30 days until final submission. I have to prep the extenuating circumstance forms yet really it is the last thing on my mind.

We just want things over and done with. He can convaless, I can keep watch AND finish off my work. I am spinning so many plates here, I should be in the ****ing circus.

Excuse the parlez, just would like things to be a little more plain sailing for a change.
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....and for the first time in weeks, Insomnia is back again. Well, I haven't missed you - do you know what the time is? It is three in the fricken morning. I suppose you are gonna keep me hostage til at least six am, then render me broken and useless for the rest of the day. You plague me like an unwanted houseguest. You reap my sleep.

Bah!
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It stings a bit, but I have to rethink how I am going to plan out my assignments. I have told my lecturer that there are some aspects of my personal life, is starting to seriously impact upon my academic life. Hubby has an exam and an outpatients oppointment, and the tension is thick in my house. Too much worry all round. Lecturer says that I can email the other two lecturers, to sort out other aspects of work and take next week off, so no college til next year. Woohoo. I can crack on with study at home.

Some of the dates re rough drafts have changed a bit and the Dickens/Gaskell title has been amended, so I can write predominantly about Hard Times and use North & South as a secondary text. So, some of the pressure is off. I expressed my concerns re not maintaining a first - mostly down to stamina. This is where wisdom trumps intellect - time out. I also need time to rethink how to write a better, more concise essay. More importantly, I look forward to diving into the depths of sleep which has defied me later.
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I had 2.5 hours of sleep last night. PP was ok-ish, there were only 2 other students in this morning. There is a *huge* amount of work to do, but right now it is time to curl up and go to sleep, mega earlier.

Happiness is a hotwater bottle and Radio 4 extra :-)
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I'm A-wake A-gain. Hubby has his appointment with the consultant later on today. They will tell him how long he has to wait for a procedure and/or further tests. I have a PP to do in less than 9 hours - it is worth 20% of my entire module mark. I could ask for another day, but it will be a yoke around my neck. I have to write this sucker too: explain the timeline between Perrault's 'Le Barbe Bleu' to Winterson's 'Oranges' via Brothers Grimm; Sheridan le Fanu; Charles Dickens; Charlotte Bronte; Robert Browning x 2; Jean Rhys; Angela Carter and to finish, Bill Willingham/DC Comics.

Mini Diss - frickin' epic more like.

But here I am at twenty to two in the morning, burning my eyeballs out, courtesy of my SmartPhone. I think we just want results, medications/procedures prescribed/performed so we can get on with life. We are both trying to finish our higher education, both trying to complete the tasks that should've been cleared years ago and then say "We did it! Yay! Against the odds, we did it!" Rather than scare ourselves half to death with unspeakable fears, born out of waiting too long on what is meant to be the 'Urgent' NHS Waiting List.

Will try to sleep - it is cold outside 6c (44f? Random guess) and the stars are bright with chilly brittleness.

Edit ::: It had gone VERY cold 0c (32f)
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Hello Darkness, my old friend - seems I'm wide awake again. In fact, Morpheus, Sandman et al have not troubled me once this night. I lie awake plagued by uncertainty, just wanting things to clear so we can get on with life. Hubby can sleep through the most stressful of times, curled up like a cat - I however, stay awake. Churned up and restless, seeking solace in a SmartPhone in the dead of night.

Sleep, per chance to dream - although not quite in the way that Hamlet meant.
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Awake again, since half past four this morning. Weary body, restless mind.
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Or rather Morpheus - I have insomnia, just for a change. For some reason it is always after I hang out with my sister and niece. I have a lovely day, but then find it hard to wind down. Once more, it is too warm and stuffy, which doesn't help. I have noticed that the shadows are getting longer again and in six weeks I will be back in college, awaiting instructions for the FdA English Studies Year Two grind. I should have my nose in Dickens, but find myself side tracked into reading Monica Ali's 'Brick Lane.'

Alas, I cannot pick up the latter to read, as the bedside lamp will wake Hubby up, so I have to remain contented with the glow of my Smartphone. Probably doing all kinds of damage to my eyesight.

To sleep, perchance to dream - I know I am misquoting Hamlet here and there. I just seek sweet, dreamless slumber that eludes me just now.
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I can't sleep - not because I am net surfing either. I have been staring at the inside of my eyelids for the past 3 hours and I am yet to find the arms of Morpheus. Part of this is that I have to see the dentist tomorrow (well, in 9 hours actually).

Listen to the Colour of your Dreams (The Beatles - Tomorrow Never Knows).

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