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Above is the Writer's Cafe at the top of Babbage Building. Very empty. The campus was quite busy - very few lecturers around but most of the students are revising etc. Classrooms are curiously full - let out to companies outside the uni set up. Last peek in looked like a 'buddy bonding' course that business are so fond of. Sweet.

In regards to my general output, well, I have overshot my timetable by about 2 days, but I will restart tomorrow. I am done with the intro for now and will go forward with the beginning of chapter one tomorrow. I wanted perfection - but I feel I am not going to get close, until I let the intro go for the time being and concentrate on the rest. Thankfully, the first chapter looks like I will not need to do so much to it (I hope!). Plus side is bringing home several wedge books that filled the rucksack and gave me a hernia on the way down to the railway station. The price of paying for state-approved education.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1543943.html

A far better day today, but running slightly behind. Was up early, started on time and managed to unravel a lot of my intro and sew it back up with new thread. Not going to push this metaphor any further, but will need to do some in depth research on this tomorrow and embellish some more.

An arrival of the dreaded migraine meant that rain stopped play for an hour and a half until the tabs kicked in. A combination of stress, bad diet, most definitely coffee and light sources from three different angles i.e. sunlight rebounding off of bookcase, overhead and angle lamp = buzzy fuzzy head. Usually sight becomes obscured in one eyes then spreads - this time it came as a bank of fog underneath my line of sight, then proceeded to close round into a tunnel effect. Thankfully this has passed, but need to stop for the night, so it doesn't re submerge tomorrow.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1543043.html

Had mini heart failure earlier as I realised the old intro I was using as a template for my new intro, was not the refined one I sent off in December, but its knuckle-dragging cousin from several incarnations earlier. I had also lost that original intro and somewhere along the line I mislaid the work I was working on. Seriously, like WTF - where could it have possibly gone to??? I couldn't even remember what it had been titled and saved to. Crap-oh-la. Mood not help by goons from the House of Wrong next door, who had put an industrial pressure washer on. It echoed round the courtyard, rattled the metal tower (currently up to service gutters etc) and rattled the cats, who were looking imploringly at me, asking me to stop whomever it was who was making the racket.

I had expected to be further forward. I will stay up a little later to compensate. After this, I will envisage clouds scudding across my ceiling etc. Find my 'happy place'

O_o

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1541803.html

I want to run away at the moment. Terrible bouts of side tracking and procrastination - which are not worth it, as my head does a number on me if I am not at my desk. I have to make a decision as whether to tackle each chapter by book and discuss the characters' archetypes within, or each chapter by archetype and identify the books/characters within each.

I have gone passed the date that I can contact my diss lecturer and I need to make this decision soon. Which will carry the best arguments, I wonder? Which can I sustain better? One will be comparatively boring and may give me less marks, the other will be a headache and a bit of a gamble - which will pay off IF I can sustain the argument. Godsdammit!!

18:56
I have been...well, not doing a lot at all, but not through procrastination. I hadn't realised how wound up I was about it all. I am no longer worried about leaving uni or life after it - in fact, I am quite looking forward to it. The angle of the diss was really getting to me. Think I am going to play it safe and do one chapter per book, because the other option is only possible if I was concentrating purely on archetypes, then the latter would have been perfect. Alas, I don't think I can structure an argument from that angle, unless I had a big chunk of time and guidance to do it. The problem is about word count i.e. never enough. Let me tell you, if you have plenty to say, 8,000-10,000 words is nothing, even if you pare back the good stuff and economically cherry pick. I could do it if it was the dissertation for the MA (15,000 words), but I think I would be cross eyed and gaga by the time I finished.

Hubby, Prodigal 2 and Nay (P2's g'friend) are going out to CrapDonald's - I am going to use my time solo to thrash out the problem on Dictaphone. Sometimes writing alone doesn't sort out a muddle and I want time to get this straight.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1539801.html

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I am most miffed that the HBO True Blood version has been banned on copyright infringement here in the UK, yet I can still view it on Vimeo. Just as DM's 'To Have and to Hold' was important for the mini diss, the True Blood video is something I want in my vision for the major diss. Both have similar qualities - about abuse of power and/or who has ultimate power in destructive relationships. I have downloaded the original onto iTunes, but I wanted visual representation of the HBO characters attached to LJ via YouTube. What is it about vampiric law? Is it about being drunk on the idea of power or being drunk on resisting that power? What is more seductive - a willing participant/victim, or that who resists with the option to succumb/not succumb. Human nature, an interesting subject sometimes.

Day has been disrupted somewhat, weather cold and rain-lashed. I will have to make some kind of start to rebuild the Intro, then see the angles I will have to argue. Oh, and research. A lot. Interesting to see what this will look like at the end of days (somewhere around May 3rd).

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1539259.html

Sometimes, I get a little disappointed with myself as at this stage, I really think I should know how to write. Yet, I have handed over a first 'exceptionally rough draft' to my lecturer as time pressures have meant that I haven't had time to sort it out. I have also emailed him a detailed plan and see what he thinks of that, too. This is the last week I can see and email him - from there on in, I am on my own (well, me and 60 others who are freaking out re their own dissertation final sub - 38 days and counting). Tomorrow, I will go back to chapter 2 and rewrite the end, as I believe that ch 1 and 2 even if they Do need overhauling - will largely be ready for academic sprinkles.

Mother's day was nice. Lunch out at Waitrose and cards/flowers/chocolates from Prodigal 1. Prodigal 2 bought me an attractive notebook and a paper laser, of which I will be having plenty of fun time with, winding up the cats. Because I am such a child.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1535768.html

I have been away from the PC for a fair while (bad night/bad stomach etc), but at least I have found out the following a) date for seeing diss lecturer (need to get my third chapter essay plan to him at the weekend), b) I know exactly what the last assignment questions are now - it is either going to be Nightmare Abbey, or Galapagus c) even if I was having sleeping probs the other night, the brain had a 'Eureka!' moment, when I realised exactly what I was going to write about in chapter three d) the healing properties of sleep and apple cider vinegar <--- seriously, anyone with an acidic tum should drink it - diluted in water.

More plodding and chipping away - started by pasting draft one into new draft two and begin tapping away :-)

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1533567.html

Yesterday, whilst nursing a uncomfortable face with a well-received hot water bottle, I transferred notes for Wise Children across and today, I have begun the final chapter. I had to leave Chapter two hanging in mid air as lecturer hung onto it until it was too late for me to write anymore for him - so I will have to back track on this and write the ending in a couple of weeks or so. I did a tally as to how much of the dissertation I have written so far and with Intro/Ch1/Part of Ch2 = 5,267. Ch 3 is basically a bunch of notes and currently stands at 1,482 = Altogether approx 6,309. That number has made me feel a lot better, but I know it is something I have to really get my skates on for.

As of 3 weeks ago, I have had to chop Classic FM off, as I can't concentrate with it on and instead am content to listen to 'Brown Noise' (which I know sounds dodgy, but it's just 'White Noise' with the top end capped off.

So - plodding on :-)

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1531462.html

Must admit to going back to stage one of the second chapter and even further back to rewrite an intro, so that the rest of the essay chapters fall into place. I am trying to figure what it is that I am missing, why the bloody thing lacks coherence. If I am centering in on 'the mother' what does that mean in the instances that you have chosen. On and on and on. I have got to get a handle on this, or I can't write the diss, pure and simple.

21:25
A lot of head scratching today and a lot of referring back to the intro and the first chapter (oh and the 'recommendations to both). What is it that I am not conveying? Beats me right now. Maybe I am not signposting the bloody obvious again - perhaps I am expecting them to be mind readers. A bit 'FFS, you MUST have read the book, haven't you?' (and dare I say it, I sense that my lecturer has not = male and specialising in war history and Victorian imperialism). I I maybe speaking out of turn and he is a sweet guy.

Going to bed. This is going to be my ever waking breath from now til May 3rd. 67 days then - or less, actually as I am meant to get it to the media centre way before this. Brilliant.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1516482.html

For 'drink coffee,' read 'eat chocolate' and you have pretty much got me in a nutshell.

Today, I haven't done too badly, I managed to write up another 2,500 or so notes - another couple of hours and I should be half way. Tomorrow will be full on, as in the evening, I will have to read something specific for the following days lecture on satire (right now, I am not sure what it is - the link is in an email somewhere). Getting somewhere, need to make more progress. Need a plank of Dairy Milk, but that is not forthcoming :-/

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1513509.html

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Spring feels like it is here, with the first semi warm and sunny days since September last. I have to fight the urge to go out and catch some shots of the first shoots of spring. Chapter 2 isn't exactly in the bag - in fact, I posted it with great trepidation as a cry for help (messy beyond belief and I couldn't get past rearranging the same old crap). Now I have some breathing space, it is time to go through and write up crucial notes for Chapter 3, rather than sit around letting the grass grow under my feet.

Some good and not so good news about my former fellow students. On the NSGN front - a student who was an FdA from my old college dropped out re discrepancies about her work. A genuine mistake on her part and it got to such a position, she dropped out in December. I am glad to hear she is doing well and in a nice job, but ultimately very disappointing. Her running partner also is struggling, as she took English with Politics and is finding it a strain, not to mention quite alienating. On a brighter note, another fellow Truro colleague, who graduated last September has passed his teacher training literary test and the all important evil maths test - closer steps in becoming a teacher. I am very pleased for him, think he will do a good job, too.

Anyway it's tappitty tap time :-)

22:57

I have written out 2,633 words today and barely made a dent (just over 10% of it) but it should settle soon, because it is about fleshing key characters out and that will be narrowing down shortly. I have to concentrate on the relationships with the protagonists' key mother figures and add the others in as incidentals, as and when. Dead tired now and I have Prodigal 1 and granddaughter over tomorrow, so I won't be seeing this til about 2 in the afternoon.

Current Music: Christobal De Morales - Parce mihi Domine
Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1512527.html

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After very little sleep, I am back at the coalface (well, the desk) and am about to work really hard - my play off is to watch the Terry Pratchett: Back in Black biopic. I am still looking forward to it, but I didn't realise that his closest family and friends will be playing themselves i.e. his daughter, Rhianna, Neil Gaiman, Paul Kidby and favourite reader Stephen Briggs etc. This might be harder to watch than I had thought.

Onward.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Classic FM - Various with Alexander Armstrong
Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1507639.html

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I haven't been at my desk since Monday and I sit looking at it, well blankly quite frankly, my dear. Weather is being it's usual misbehaving self, either stormy and freaky or just hungover grey. Penzance is especially getting a lashing and the above photo is a comparatively bright one of the waves just crashing in. More photos and footage HERE

Well, time to open up the document and contemplate the next step.

23:02
Bit fed up as I have got problems with trigeminal neuralgia at the moment, but for some reason on a different side of my face (meh, it's all related and inconvenient, though at a level that I can deal with at the moment). Can't say that I've achieved much, but I have done some work and even added academic that will be absolutely polemic to the argument. Full speed ahead tomorrow.

Current Music: Classic FM (just for a change)
Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1501657.html

I am deeply frustrated as events have kept me away from the keyboard and I have a VERY long day in Plymouth tomorrow - catching an early train and probably won't be back til after 9pm. I have tried to reassemble by rewriting then trying to research at the same time. I am becoming rather unstuck as neither are working for me at the moment. At least P2 and Hubby are out at the moment, which makes writing so very much easier.

I have printed out my old Bluebeard mini dissertation, so I can see what kind of lexis I used there - part of this to stop me citing myself; another is that I "cannot 'brain' today, I have the 'dumb.'"

20:10

The only way to deal with this is to cut the essay into thirds as I need to crunch down the waffle to the more complex, yet still component parts. I can see me doing this to Doomsday - but I have a mere 92 days left, so that's not an option.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1498515.html

(Picture is unrelated, but have you noticed that coconut oil/aloe vera/apple cider vinegar seems to be THE thing to sort out everything from Jock itch to Tsetse Fly? If in doubt, liberally daub all over life).

I have read my tutor's observations on chapter two and have now got to the point where I am scratching my head (Ti Tree oil is another). I have amended a few things, but now I have got to REALLY think what I want to say, because I don't feel inspired to write ANYTHING on the subject. I think I will have to scuttle off and do some research - that may help. That and dictaphone.

21:02
Funny how things are. I pondered for hours without writing a thing, even cleaned the board and stared at it for a while. Eventually, I had a 'penny drop' moment and I think I have reworked the plan to my advantage and it looks nothing like the original essay or it's plan, but I do believe that I am nearer to getting it sussed.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1497686.html

Just had an email from diss lecturer and I cannot have my marks until I see him. I am trying to see him on Wednesday, as I think I cannot go any further until I know I am doing the right thing. After yesterdays hacking about, I don't want to have to prise the new chapter apart again. Therefore, I have downed tools and will have a sneak peek at Satire instead. Maybe I need a break from it in any case.

Current Mood: blank
Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1496079.html

I have made much more progress today, essentially taking the essay apart and putting it back together. Now the thorough rewrite starts. Thing is, I think it might be better to improve it a little, THEN take it to the head honcho for his point of view. Which could be ages yet and I really don't want to be twiddling my thumbs. I think I should look at the Satire syllabus and start reading up on that - it will give me a break from the dissertation and give me the heads up as to what is expected.

This is the order of play for the first couple of weeks:

Killing Joke: Satire, Power, Death and Comedy

The Classical Satirists: Railing, Grinning and Sitting Down to Tea/Extracts from Horace, Juvenal and Lucian.

Not sure whether to embrace this or run for the hills, to be frank. There is a whole lot of satire going down re the recent turn of events in the western world, so I look on with interest to how this is going to be handled.

Current Mood: nerdy
Current Music: Classic FM (just for a change)
Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1496016.html

No sign of portfolio as yet and started typing late as a friend has popped around. I * think * that the essay is making progress, but not before I chop a whole load off - again. I have to concentrate on the women of the novel, rather than the men, but I maintain their involvement is crucial. Difficult then, when you show how one pairing acts against another, without drawing then men further into the equation. Difficult ground.

Over the next few days, I will have to order the Windows Office package and get it delivered ASAP, plus have a better look and a preliminary read of the first few books of the Satire module. If I can get this chapter sorted for the first draft, then I will be happy to move on.

21:15
I have spent the past three hours trying to rouse my laptop from its lair under the desk and actually have it a) Updated and b) Upload Microsoft 365. This has taken FAR longer than expected as it wants me to have a Microsoft email account, get my verification and confirmation email from Plymouth. Plus Hubby is annoyed that he has to unearth the printer from the arse end of the cottage (4 rooms and 1 staircase away), as mine gave up the ghost 2 weeks ago. It also means switching printer wires from pc to laptop, sending precious work files cascading to the floor. Cue very crude Anglo Saxon words beginning with the letters 'f' and 's.'

I am resigned to not getting any typing done and just be pleased that I have a working, fully-functioning laptop. This has been brought forward because a) Plymouth now want me in for two days a week and I need to be able to type on something when I am in between lessons and trains, b) Apparently, I need to do the National Survey on my own laptop device and in front of one of the main lecturers.

Onward tomorrow.

Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1495122.html

The apparition of these faces in the crowd;
Petals on a wet, black bough.

(In a Station of the Metro - by Ezra Pound)

This was posted by me three years ago and I must admit to really missing my old class and lecturer from then. At least I felt alive and animated, whereas now I am surly and closed off. Take no notice - as I mentioned before, I had no sleep, then 3 hours, then woken up by post, calls and I think the world and his wife wanted my attention at midday today. back to chipping away until my mind goes blank.

* mumble, grumble, crumble*

Later
Alas, it all came to nowt as Prodigal 2 announced that he needed to get to the job centre to sign on toot sweet, or we wouldn't be able to get rent out of him this week. Just not my day. Too dozy now to carry on, so I am taking my Kindle to bed to listen to David Suchet reading Tom Sharpe's Blott on the Landscape. Very early night of rme, but night all :-)

Current Music: Classic FM - Various
Crossposts: http://calico-pye.livejournal.com/1492360.html

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I am not sure why I have chosen this photo, but maybe it's because there are a lot of shoes that need to be partnered up to make sense. A lot like my assignments, then. I am also fighting an urge to write a story about how the shoes got to be in this square. Who is this man - is he a philosopher or a politician? Mind wanders, then my brain goes "Stop, stop, - STOP! Get on with the assignment!" I am blessed not so much with dogged determination, but a conscious akin to the Thought Police. So, onward. However, don't let that stop you from commenting what YOU think it means, or using the pic to write a story. Right now, I have to rid my brain of shoes and fill it with feminist theory. Perhaps the shoes symbolise idealisation of the female identity.... WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

19:20
Have made more progress than expected, naturally writing some of it and paring back on the information that I thought I needed. This is the process of the first draft - adding in text referencing and weeding out unnecessary quotes and expanding theories. The plan looks as different from the first draft as the first draft is to the final draft. So, will carry on for a few hours and then call it a day :-)

Current Mood: mind wandering
Current Music: Classic FM - Various
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Entries tagged with angela carter

MD Final Intro - Day Whatever

MD Final Intro - Day 3

MD Final Intro - Day 2

Run For the Hills - INTRO BEGINS

Corrupt

Major Dissertation Ch 3 - Day ?

Major Dissertation Ch 3 - Day 2

Major Dissertation Ch 3 - It Begins

Back to the Drawing Board (A-Gain)

Blankie/Chocolate Anxiety

Major Dissertation Ch 3 Notes - It Begins

Chapter Revising - Still Going

Major Dissertation Ch 2/D = Again, I Don't Know

Major Dissertation Ch 2/D = I Don't Know

Now I Have Got It Back - What Do I Do With It?

Ground to a Halt

Major Dissertation Ch 2/Day 6

Major Dissertation Ch 2/Day 5

Major Dissertation Ch 2/D1/Essay - It Begins

Major Dissertation Ch 2/D1/Day 6 - Notes (Continued)